i love how when you're writing a story/novel, in the beginning nobody's reading it except you. so you can write whatever story you want and there would be nobody there to criticize you. i'm having a lot of fun writing this story.

i've just come back to blogging because i was bored. i've noticed there's no point to my blog anymore, my life is just too boring. i guess most of my blogs could be read like a video on youtube or something (or maybe just a vlog) but this is just stupid.

i'm bored so i guess i'll talk about...something.

im writing this at around 6:00 AM because i took like a 4 hour nap yesterday and i stayed awake for at least 3 hours last night because i slept too much.

i hate how my keyboard makes so much noise around this time. its like my keys sound is being magnified to like a thousand times louder so the whole house could probably hear it. which isn't saying much, because my house is just a three story townhouse. i think you could fart in my house's 1st floor and people could hear it on my 3rd.

they say fart is an inappropriate word. i guess i'm supposed to call it flatulence since my school's English teacher hates it when we don't use big words and use little "inappropriate" words. i have no idea what she means by that. because if you look at my blog, there's so many things my English teacher would hate if she saw.

i dont really care, though, because like stories, i can write anything i want on my blog and nobody will care. except maybe the people who know me who find this blog and follow it.

it's kinda the reason why i made a completely new email for this blog. i just wanted some privacy, you know? but then i made a mistake by telling a person from my school that i was the person who commented on her blog a year ago.

a pretty stupid move on my part. i wanted privacy but i just ruined it myself. can't blame anyone now. but i know that person keeps secrets so i'm fine. i guess.

there are some things i can't tell anyone but my good friend in Maryland who i've been in touch with over email for at least 2 years. i love how she doesn't go to my school and nobody at hers know me, and we're best friends. so i can virtually lie to her and she would believe me. but who would like to the only friend you can talk to? i can act like a girl around her, she won't mind, she would think i was always like that. i love my best friend. i could talk about ANY of my problems, and she wouldn't judge me because i never judged her when she told me about her problems.

i just got a micro sd card on my phone. you have no idea how awesome that is to me, since the card didn't come with my phone like most other phones. it was optional. so now even though i don't have an ipod or anything, i can still listen to the music i like with my cell. i'm just so glad i downloaded real music onto my phone before the 3 hour trip to busch gardens last friday, because turns out my dad had already downloaded CCMs onto my phone. i don't like half of them because i don't like listening to 40 year old korean men singing. NOT music to MY ears.

someday i wish i would go to LA and meet famous people. i wish i took some martial arts class, because i seem like the only asian i know who doesn't take martial arts. i wish my parents would let my sign up for a soccer team. i wish i wasn't a pastor's kid. i guess sometimes i wish the right people from school would read my blog and not know who it was. i wish i had as many friends as everybody else at school.

or at least i do have friends, but i'm such a boring person that nobody talks about me. nobody talks about the seemingly quiet shy boring middle schooler who never does anything fun (or at least that's what they think).

blogging is fun, i can let off steam and feel pretty good about it because nobody's here to stop me or embarrass me or whatever. although i feel bad when i'm running my mouth and cursing my ass off. eh, whatever, habits go away a lot. i need to stop cursing i think i'm freaking some people out at school.

because who knew the quiet asian girl would have such a dirty mouth?

i guess i'm kinda weird, too, because there's some things that i do that a lot of people might think is really odd.

when i smile, i smile crookedly. one side of my mouth goes up first so i look like i'm showing a cocky smile. cocky and proud expressions don't look good on me, either.
sometimes when i'm spaced out, without knowing it, i stare at a person for 10 seconds.
i like manga/anime but hate the wannabe japanese.
i don't judge people but i'm sometimes racist.
i'm one person to some people and i'm another person to others. i don't have a personality because i act differently to every person. it's kind of the reason why i signed up for theatre arts; i wanted to observe the actions of other people. to gain more "data," i guess? :/
people who play instruments are pretty well known, i've heard. not at our school, because playing instruments isn't that special. everybody plays instruments here.
i talk to myself.
난 음악 곡을 못 읽는다. 하지만 거희 아무도 모르니까 상관 없다. 퀸텟 같이 하는 애들한테 그 사실을 알려줬으니까 그 애들이 내가 이상하다고 생각을 할 수도 있다. 아니면 잊어버렸어도 모르겠다.
i eat breakfast. nobody eats breakfast anymore. whatever happened to all the spongebob influences and the do you like waffles song?

great. now somebody else is awake and i have to stop blogging.