all right, so i wanted to address something really debated these days, especially today, and it's involved with Harold Camping. yep, i'm talking about the infamous "prophecy" this "Bible scholar" is giving about the end of the world. if i could, i would submit writing or whatever to some published newspaper because apparently even the CHRISTIANS are believing this end of the world bullshit.
i'm not saying the end of the world isn't coming anytime, i'm just saying it's wrong for this Camping guy to guess what God is doing. because, i mean, come on, doesn't it say specifically in the Bible that people aren't supposed to know the day or the hour of this thing? or is this guy just so thickheaded that all he thinks about is the Bible and not the nature of which the people's belief of Jesus came from?
it's not wrong to read the Bible, but whatever happened to the end of the world being secretive? what happened to this guy's idea of believing what the Bible says about people not knowing the end of the world? because now i swear even if i have a really dirty tongue i want to live and die a Christian who READS the Bible.
i did think once that maybe there wouldn't be any demoninations of Christians if we just all read and believed and did what the Bible tells us to do instead of getting all argumental about the interpretations. i'm sorry, but i'm just a shallow minded girl who just wants to love God, end of story. i follow God because i'm grateful he already saved me.
so will we please stop worrying about the end of the world?
there's this girl i knew since the day she was born and i once thought she was a pretty good young Christian...until she started getting paranoid about this end of the world stuff. she had a Buzz post on Gmail that said, "The END is coming!!" and a Facebook post that said, "Spread the Word, spread the Word, because something's coming soon!"
thankfully, i got there just in time before she started going a bit overboard. i hope with all my heart she read my comments because i really don't want her to be all confused if the thing really isn't 6:00 PM today. i'm not sure, nobody's supposed to be sure, but if somebody's already guessed it's at 6 today then it probably isn't because again, according to the Bible, we're not supposed to know and it's supposed to come kinda like a thief in the middle of the night.
guys, we're not supposed to be guessing this. i haven't actually gotten started ranting on this blog post, and i've already written so much. but maybe the real reason i'm blogging about this issue is because i want to calm other people down, even if they're not reading my blog post. or maybe because i'm even doubting myself?
i'll admit, i may not be a typical "good Christian" or whatever they expect me, a pastor's kid, to be, but i'm terrified for the end of the world when i shouldn't be and my brain's going through mental chaos right now. the doctor even said yesterday that i'm going through a lot that's why i'm getting really bad migraines. apparently i've been stuffing crisises in the back of my head and it's all just exploded at once. so i guess i'm a bit mentally unstable?
this is bad, i've already gone through the borderline between my sanity and my other person and i didn't notice until now. sorry guys.
i've always had a split personality and i guess right now is my moment of truth, to decide who i really am, not because of the end of the world, but realizing how fragile my faith was when this apparent self defined Bible scholar used math to "prove" the date of the end of the world and i believed him.
it's stupid, but my parents were the one who pulled me back, and i couldn't do it on my own. i'm a fucking weakling, a damn retard. i think it's time for me to take my mental pills because now i'm going overboard.
believe in God and the Bible, guys, but i guess it's okay to have a crisis of doubt like this every once in a while because then you would actually see yourself for real again.
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