10 topics...aah wtf.

ehehehe. i've noticed i havent been blogging, even though my good friend sam asked me at least twice a week if i was still blogging, in which i say no, feel sorry for 5 seconds, then leave for lunch where i shall starve myself by eating nothing and doing homework.

yes, i feel like a loser. thanks for rubbing it in.

i have almost nothing to talk about so i'll just post what i said when my good english teacher gave us a couple of assignments telling us to choose our "top 10"s or whatever. here's one of them. to tell u the truth, they were actually quite fun.

10 topics i could write a five paragraph essay about:

1. how people handle death
2. why people deny truth
3. why i hate public speaking
4. how asians and americans differ
5. what i would rather be doing
6. the meaning(less) of cursive lettering
7. pros and cons of each core subject
8. why i should stop trying to get called on
9. why students shouldnt give up trying to get the teacher to call on them when they raise their hand
10. teachers should call on every person who has a question or something they want to contribute to the class.

i am quite proud of my list, btw.

the last three topics are probably all based on the same thing.. nvm, they ARE all based on the same thing. english teachers, for some reason, have been ignoring my raised hand for more than 2 years now. is it because my hands are ridiculously small and miniscule that the teachers cannot see my hand? wait that doesnt make sense cuz they should at least see my arm..

i swear every time im the only person raising my hand when my english teacher asks a question she looks round the room, glances at my hand, then suddenly turns her head to the other direction and says, "NOBODY has an answer?" while i'm in the corner, going, "hel-LO!! im right here!!"

like what the freaking heck.

teachers should stop being biased or ignoring. case in point, my current situation. but it seems like the only bias teachers i know are english teachers. is it cuz im asian that i have nothing important to say during english class? i DO raise my hand. very high. and the asian remark doesnt really prove anything cuz she still calls on this other asian guy who happens to be her favorite asian male student.

her favorite student is hannah north since shes way smart in every core subject a middle school can throw at her. english, civics, science, (shes not in my math class), she always did more research than the actual curriculum so she always has something major smart and important to say. shes like smart AND pretty right?

whearas i am the smart looking one who is actually pretty stupid. dont contradict me.

actually there WAS a time when in elementary school i was always the favorite, the role model. although my grades were not the anticipated straight As, the teachers have always thought of me as refreshing and bright, always striving to impress, and brimming with innocence. i was the pure, sweet girl who probably made the most mistakes in the class. probably why i was so easy to love. back then, at least. but now..

am i innocent? no. bright? no. pure? no. sweet? no. refreshing? no. likeable? maybe if u break through my walls.

but the only factor that has always remained the same was that i make a LOT of mistakes. despite my careful personality i always tend to be the stupid one who makes the mistakes. but im not like 6 anymore. mistakes arent cute now.

dont give me the "its ok nobodys perfect" shit. i can tell u firsthand that people still expect perfect personalities.