Animosity

"if i had a gun on me, i would shoot you right now."

thats what an obese ginger bitch said to my best friend during recess sometime in 2008.

i couldnt believe she said that to the only guy in the whole class who wanted to be with her. no matter how mean she was to him, no matter how many dark hints she gave to the guy, he would swallow any hard feelings and open his heart more.

but she had crossed the line.

i lost my temper and shouted in her face about what an ungrateful, selfish person she was for saying that to my friend, who was doing all he could to change her from a temperamental girl with no friends to a more open hearted girl who could accept that people are different.

it was only until my friend grabbed my arm that i stopped. he looked imploringly at me. some of my classmates looked terrified, since all this time they thought i was an innocent girl who was the calming person in the class. and then the teachers saw me, and i was so embarrassed i started crying.

i was angry, the class was horrified that i screamed, the teachers were disappointed, and she was sent to the principal. but i doubt she cared, since she went to the principal's room every other week.



(i wrote this in a journal when i was 9.)